A way out of the inner maze

I want to say an enormous thank you for organising yesterday's meeting on the theme “The need to be loved at any cost”. It was my first experience of a group like this and I am very glad I decided to come. The atmosphere was surprisingly warm and friendly, and because of that I was not afraid at all to open up and share what I was going through. The meeting turned out to be very valuable for me — I was able to look at my problem from a different angle, I learned something new about myself, and I thoroughly enjoyed talking both with Jekaterina and with the other women in the group. It was incredibly interesting to listen and to take part in the conversation. Thank you for creating such a safe space for honesty and support.

Katyusha, thank you so much too — for the valuable knowledge, for sessions so powerful that they let you look deep inside yourself, realise things and come back to who you really are.

Thank you, Jekaterina, for the meeting and the debrief. It was so valuable! There is a lot to think about. There was also a lot I recognised in myself — thank you to everyone who was there!

Hi Katya! I am all right. My mother called yesterday to ask how we were, and then she said that after lunch she felt as if her strength had gone somewhere. I did not think it could work that fast… It is hard to believe it all works this way — I understand it with my head, and still it is hard to take in. I want to live my own life, so however hard it was to hand the weight back to my mother, I understand that it had to be done.

Katyusha, you are absolutely brilliant, an expert in your field, an inspiration and a driving force for thought. Thank you — everything is moving as it should, the result will come.

Jekaterina, I want to say thank you as well. On the one hand, I needed to learn to ask. But I knew where to find the money for this project. If anything, I should be asking for money for a bigger one — building a hotel. I have decided that when I get to Moscow I will invite them for coffee and talk about working together.

Enormous thanks to you, Jekaterina, and to all the other participants. It seems to me this was the best meeting we have had — the others were wonderful too, but this one was really powerful. I am grateful that thanks to you and your careful way of seeing, I could look at my difficult, shadow self from another angle. I felt, and truly gained, more resource and more trust in myself and in what I do. I understood that it is enough to keep hiding away, and that it is time to remember how I used to step out of my comfort zone deliberately — to take those actions up again and find new ones that challenge me. It is impossible to put into words; I want to pay you, and pay a lot. I will think of something.

Good day. I had a session with the metaphorical cards. It is an interesting process that reveals our fears and worries and at the same time points towards the actions we need. The theme of the session was whether to stay or to change the country I live in. Honestly, after the session there was a surge of energy, emotion and joy at what I had seen. There is a belief in a better outcome in my life — perhaps it is a coincidence, but the cards I named matched the pictures on my wall, and that astonished me! At the end of the session I shared this with Jekaterina and it was wonderful. Many thanks to her for lifting my spirits! The goal is set: “small steps into a big future”. Good luck!

Having lived almost 70 years in this world, I have come to a conclusion: if there is no personal freedom, and you depend on many circumstances — health, finances, relationships with parents and children, relatives and the person you love, lack of time, age and so on — then life turns into routine contemplation. Only you know what you need; only you decide how to fill your own existence. And so, in order to find your path, your wishes, your actions, your motivation and your goal, you have to understand yourself, and that information has to be drawn out of your own subconscious — which is exactly what your metaphorical cards helped me do, Katya. Thank you for that opportunity.

What I came with. Hi! Answering the three questions before tomorrow's session: 1) my request — I want to accept my own sexuality; 2) what I expect from the session — to see what sexual energy gives me, how it can change my life, and to understand how to “switch it on”; 3) the best outcome — I accept my sexuality, I love my body, I feel free and at the same time protected.

What I left with. I want to thank you for the last session, where we touched on a subject that is delicate for me. I feel I have started to look differently at some of the men I have had a connection with in the past. I genuinely feel gratitude towards two of them. Closeness with my husband happened differently too. It mattered to me to say out loud what I had hidden and pushed aside for years, and to get a response. Thank you for supporting me and for taking it without judgement. It is one more step towards change.

A fast read of the situation, a clear understanding of it, and the ability to say the words that knock your legs out from under you and make you speak. I am a tough, active person and I need exactly that kind of approach — otherwise I adapt very quickly and start going around the problem in advance, automatically. I will definitely come to the game again. I would not say everything in my life changed at once, or that one time is enough, but for me specifically it makes me think about the questions I am afraid to ask myself, and it raises the problems that hide neatly behind our needs. It was a surprise to learn that my pull towards adrenaline in everything I do is a wish to live here and now and to switch off from what was and what will be… I will still climb the mountain — only now I will look at what is behind it.

Hi, I slept so sweetly last night. I woke up with a calm head and my thoughts flowing in harmony. You showed me from an interesting angle what discipline actually means for me. It turns out I have spent my whole life fighting a demon that was in fact my strength and my originality. We are all so different, and we should not be trying to be the same. Otherwise we lose our power. It matters so much to live with pleasure, and I am rather good at that. So why should I fight it and be like everyone else? I also want to say that there is definitely something inexplicable in you — you see far more than I do, and the game opened me up to you as if you were looking straight into my soul (I have no doubt, by the way, that we have met in a past life). I want to thank you from my heart for your talent, your professionalism and your help. We will certainly meet in other games. Life is a game after all, and it is wonderful that thanks to you we can play it better and step out of the victim's place. With love and gratitude.